LIFE is just so mean...or it is just me...

Its already 1.30am in the morning and i cant sleep...just feeling a little down...well,its not that problematic as i thought but i just seems to sense something is misssing in my life...and that is me..what recently happen to me is looks so real but i cant feel the way how it is suppose to be felt...sometimes i wonder why do bad things happen to me more than good things...why do life has to be so many downs rather the opposite,,is life has to be treated this way?how on earth will people get over with this feeling..am i that person who gives more than take?i just want to feel the love that u gave me when our eyes met,hearts fluttered and mouth just knows what to sayt..i cant feel everything that u do now is true.....i know u have alot of problems in your life but if u have time to show your love towards dramas,why not me?why do i have to be left out in this...still remembered your words towards me...the promises u made...but all this seems to be fade away by time...i just hope u could be like last time..i miss you!!why do my life feels so unfair...i dont understand..why do bad people especially those with looks blessed by so many girls to play around and still wants him while good people with good and faithfull heart always get hurt and treatment in this way..thats why for me life is just so mean..wish the world could turn back time for me to look out what the mistakes i have done or others done so i can fix it..life goes on still...i miss you yong mei chan,wheres the real you?i really cant find you..

Wow..its been awhile..

just recently thinking of blogging dont know for what reason..well,my life has been changed alot..for good of cuz..what more could i ask for..a gf,caring frens,stable but unhappy job..but thats not the point..at least i have love surrounding me...this few days has been kind of pressure for me to think things i shouldnt think..well its my love of my life,mei chan..sometimes i do wonder does she ever feel pressured by me loving her too much?i mean as a boyfriend i wanna try to provide the best in our relationship but does she feel the same?i know she has her study life and good frens surrounding her but should it be this way for me to feel ignored?i was thinking what she said like this is me,my character,u will love me for who i am right.i just felt she is changed or some kind of pressure changed her attitude..but i still love her..is just that i wanna feel love just a tiny little drop..maybe im expecting too much from a undergraduate who has her own life but i thought long distance relationship should be this way..giving each other love messages whenever time permits..maybe i have to let go of her in this situation and grow up like a man..its so hard for me to carry on with all the love and effort i gave and end up only to see her ignoring everything...cant expect too much when the person is not really letting go of the past and with her studies,its really hard to expect love back...nevermind..ill keep this is my heart till i can bear it..introvert ppl like me do this way...goodbye world...see you again soon..