LIFE is just so mean...or it is just me...

Its already 1.30am in the morning and i cant sleep...just feeling a little down...well,its not that problematic as i thought but i just seems to sense something is misssing in my life...and that is me..what recently happen to me is looks so real but i cant feel the way how it is suppose to be felt...sometimes i wonder why do bad things happen to me more than good things...why do life has to be so many downs rather the opposite,,is life has to be treated this way?how on earth will people get over with this feeling..am i that person who gives more than take?i just want to feel the love that u gave me when our eyes met,hearts fluttered and mouth just knows what to sayt..i cant feel everything that u do now is true.....i know u have alot of problems in your life but if u have time to show your love towards dramas,why not me?why do i have to be left out in this...still remembered your words towards me...the promises u made...but all this seems to be fade away by time...i just hope u could be like last time..i miss you!!why do my life feels so unfair...i dont understand..why do bad people especially those with looks blessed by so many girls to play around and still wants him while good people with good and faithfull heart always get hurt and treatment in this way..thats why for me life is just so mean..wish the world could turn back time for me to look out what the mistakes i have done or others done so i can fix it..life goes on still...i miss you yong mei chan,wheres the real you?i really cant find you..