Confused yet suay...

2day the 1st thing i woke up in the morning feel like no mood to go work..cuz i was like so suay for the couple of days when im at work..when i go in the kitchen i was expected to kena tiao by my chef but surprisingly his 1st words is "hows ur finger?let me see"(in a low tone)i was like maybe he won toto or something cant be tat nice to me..got a funny feeling bout it..but anyway he is good mood 2day so im quite glad..now dunno y everyday no mood eat and my smoking habits returns back regularly....i juz feel so lonely now witout any1 to communicate in english and its like a whole cantonese market in my place..damn..really feel sux..juz wanna find the right place to work..even though i really do enjoy cooking teppanyaki but the happiness u work wit tat kind of environment juz isnt the feeling..and oh gosh...im gastric now..need to eat later..till next time ill blog more..byes..